So Ive been putting off blogging about the "SkinnyCandi" plan for a few weeks now, not really sure why exactly. Im probably scared to talk about it for fear of jinxing it. But Im just going to go for it....
So Im going on week 7 and Im doing fantastic! The last time I checked I was down 7 lbs but that was 2 weeks ago. Im really trying my best to STAY OFF THE SCALE.. Im sure most woman can relate to the fact that if you don't get what you want or are hoping for from the scale it can completely kill your motivation. After the first few weeks and I started noticing small changes in the way my clothes fit, I was weighing myself every other day and it was a bit ridiculous. I was having 2-3 lb fluctuations and it was literally killing my spirit. So Im really trying to stick with only weighing every 2 weeks. The problem is, when you're working out as much as I am, 5-6 days a week for 1-2 hours a day you WANT to get on that scale and see that all the hard work you're putting in is actually doing something. But for me, I just don't lose weight quickly, I. just. don't. Although.....my goal was to lose 8 lbs in a month (2 lbs a week) and I lost 7. That's not bad at all....I'm very happy with that.
Something about "this time" is different, I can in all honesty say that. In the past 10 years I can't even tell you how many times Ive tried to lose weight, too many to count. Many, many failed attempts that make me feel extremely ashamed. Ashamed that I never took control of my life the way that I wanted to, the way I knew I needed to. Ashamed that I never lasted longer than a month or two. Even though, in the year and half before I got married I did go to the gym regularly and I did lose about 25 lbs. The most I had ever lost. It paid off and I can look at my wedding pictures without cringing. The weight loss also helped in me getting pregnant 6 months after getting married. However, the pregnancy was an easy excuse not to stick with my workouts. I tried until I was about 5-6 months pregnant, but after that I just gave up.
The reason I think this time is different is because Im 32 years old. My (old) age forces me to look back at the past 10 years of feeling so unhappy about the way I look and feel, insecure about my body, hiding myself- physically, mentally and probably emotionally in ways. I don't want to do that for the
next 10 years.
Im going into this weight loss adventure extremely clear headed and realistic. Those were the two things missing from my past attempts. Im not expecting miracles. I know that it's going to take time and a lot of work and that Im the only one who can make it happen.
I know it's going to take time, however that being said I don't want it to take
forever. And thats why Im putting more into this than I ever have. Instead of working out 3-4 days a week, Im going 5-6. Im running and taking advantage of all the classes my gym offers. Little things like that where I hope it makes a difference. Im also keeping track of everything I eat, except for 1 day a week where we may eat out or have a couple drinks. Im trying to stay within 1200-1500 calories per day. So far it hasn't been hard because Im working out so much and burning so many calories in the gym.
One very good thing I have going for myself is that Ive always enjoyed working out. Most people can't say that. I love the feeling I get, I love pouring sweat from working my ass off, I love pushing myself, and trying new things. I look forward to going and I love the way I feel when Im done.
I feel very IN CONTROL of my life. It's a great thing.
Im taking it 10 lbs at a time....
I'll be checking in with my progress, wish me luck!
